I was upset about Kamui... angry. Hiding it. I refused to talk, I refused to let anyone in. Then, someone confronted me on it, and I snapped at them. I yelled at a complete stranger. Itachi was wounded and confined to bed, but he told me to come over. He told me he'd come get me himself if I didn't come.
I told him I'd deal with it...
[The corner of Al's mouth twists into the edge of an almost sardonic smirk, if that sort of expression could ever be made on Al's face, and the inflections in his voice are uncannily like Itachi's, mimicking him.]
"Of course you will deal with it, Alphonse-kun. Because for you, dealing with it is pressing everything deep down inside yourself and refusing to acknowledge that it exists."
[Al sighs, shaking his head.]
He told me... not to be afraid of my feelings. That I had them, and they were completely justified. I had a right to feel hurt, and angry, and abandoned, but I was letting it become my weakness.
When I refused to acknowledge the emotions I had, they became a button, a power over me, something that would allow me to be controlled. He told me to allow myself to hurt. I was allowing my feelings to become a weakness, by refusing to acknowledge it. If I dealt with it myself, then someone pressing those buttons wouldn't be able to make me face and brave things I hadn't already done, myself. They'll be showing you a monster you've already faced and bested.
People say "don't let it get to you" but... the trick of it is to let it get to you. That way, you'll deal with it and allow yourself to grow.
... funny, coming from him, right...? The king of denying his emotions.
[Private//Unhackable]
I was upset about Kamui... angry. Hiding it. I refused to talk, I refused to let anyone in. Then, someone confronted me on it, and I snapped at them. I yelled at a complete stranger. Itachi was wounded and confined to bed, but he told me to come over. He told me he'd come get me himself if I didn't come.
I told him I'd deal with it...
[The corner of Al's mouth twists into the edge of an almost sardonic smirk, if that sort of expression could ever be made on Al's face, and the inflections in his voice are uncannily like Itachi's, mimicking him.]
"Of course you will deal with it, Alphonse-kun. Because for you, dealing with it is pressing everything deep down inside yourself and refusing to acknowledge that it exists."
[Al sighs, shaking his head.]
He told me... not to be afraid of my feelings. That I had them, and they were completely justified. I had a right to feel hurt, and angry, and abandoned, but I was letting it become my weakness.
When I refused to acknowledge the emotions I had, they became a button, a power over me, something that would allow me to be controlled. He told me to allow myself to hurt. I was allowing my feelings to become a weakness, by refusing to acknowledge it. If I dealt with it myself, then someone pressing those buttons wouldn't be able to make me face and brave things I hadn't already done, myself. They'll be showing you a monster you've already faced and bested.
People say "don't let it get to you" but... the trick of it is to let it get to you. That way, you'll deal with it and allow yourself to grow.
... funny, coming from him, right...? The king of denying his emotions.